Dear Harry,

I decided to come to this regional Avatar Course purely by invitation. I had no reason to decide I needed to be here. I have had huge shifts from the moment I got here. Okay, before I arrived.

I had anxiety about sharing a room. I never allow anyone to get close to me. While I never believed I had an experience with violence, my 5 year old inside did. I realized that in a lot of ways my avoiding has been literally about protecting my life. So many things, experiences, have felt life threatening. A long, long lived Transparent Belief!

I have experienced deep, deep fatigue frequently in my life. Earlier I thought it must be depression. For at 12-15 years now I have recognized it as resistance. I just didn?t know what to do about it. This week I finally connected fatigue to my resistance to responsibility. One of the Qualified Masters offered an exercise to handle that identity. The fatigue lifted.

By the fifth day I had dealt with so many identities that I was actually grateful my head wasn?t spinning! I felt a little off balance, but very grateful. When the fatigue returned once, I used the same tool and recovered my energy. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

New primaries- new experiences!

Ruth Smith- USA