After "pitching a fit", acting horrible and resisting,resisting and resisting, one of the Masters I had the privilege to work with at Avatar, helped guide me to a major "cleansing". My Mother died 30 years ago and ever since her death I have been unable to talk about her without crying- I mean crying!! i love my Mother very much and want to remember her and share my memories and funny stories about her ( She was a LOT of fun!) with my friends and relatives. And think privately about her when something triggered a memory of her. As a result of the pain and anguish id feel when I thought about her, the pain continued to grow and gro and take its own life robbing me of my memories. How sad.
I decided the night before the second day of the source list that Id not wear any makeup (mascara stings the eyes with tears) and attack this belief that was robbing me of my memories of the most amazing woman and Mother id ever known. Even though I was set to do this, when it came right down to it, i turned into a monster with every excuse in the book. My Master smiled and kept at me and helped me where I was- exactly where I was.
We got through the exercise (Source list)and I felt the wieght of the world lift. As a result I can (and do) talk of her and think of her without any tears, only joy that I have my Mother back! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! As a result I signed up for the Masters Course and my Son is coming with me to the next Avatar Course and I will be there as his Master. I (and my Son) have been looking for this and will be able to share it. My hubbies not ready- yet- but I know he will be when he feels and sees the change in us! Smiles to you!

Beverly Haldiman- USA- 2009