How do you do? Im from japan and taking part in the International Avatar Course. I have been suffering from bitter and painful beliefs in my life. I felt sick at the beginning of the course, too and anted to go back to Japan immediately. But then, I realized I have fallen into my usual pattern, that is to find or invent reasonable explanation in order to give up what I want to do.

 Now I am ashamed of having blamed external factors and victimizing myself. At the same time I am amazed to find I can let go of those ashamed feelings. I also came to realize that I have been shutting down my feelings. And what I have been doing to protect myself from scary things was actually steering me into sufferings.

Now I feel the wonder and awe of joy, excitement, value and appreciation for life, because now I can feel as it is. I know I am still on the path to know myself and I am going to enjoy the rest of the course form the bottom of my heart.  I signed up for the Masters, Professional and Wizards courses and I am looking forward to moving ahead further.

Thank you so much,

Kanae Sato- Japan- 2009