Where to start?! I began my experience with Avatar completing an Intro and Mini course with Shiela Miranda and Cilea, her sister-in-law. I discovered a deep belief Id been holding about money: as long as there was any poverty, I didnt deserve to have money. Just that insight in few hours convinced me I needed Avatar. When I began this program (Resurfacing & Part I) I had so much resistance. I focused on really insignificant things: the noise, the (seeming) lack of organization, the waiting outside the door for the day to begin. My "star" (Master) patiently listened to my complaints and gently prodded me to stick to it AND to complete my personal profile. I was led to complete the Forgiveness mini course and I was engaged in that when I completed my profile. What a huge "aha" moment. I had worn the cloak of victim my entire life. Never, in numerous periods doing psychotherapy, had that insight emerged. I had my own personal slide show of all those events where I had been a perfect victim. I could have won an Oscar! It took going through the Source list for me to "see" how another component to my pattern was my immediate reaction of "bolting" from a situation when things got hard, or when I was feeling pain - then I could blame the person or situation for my actions....just another aspect of playing victim. I had a number of situations during the week where I played out this pattern. I am eternally grateful to the Masters that had sufficient faith in me to "hang in": Sheila, Miranda, Beth and Sharon. When I started to leave before completing Section II, Sheila lovingly and calmly removed the obstacle of money as reason for my leaving. This time I bolted for only a short time. As I walked to the lobby I (literally) banged into Chris, a master from NM who met his wife at an Avatar Course and found himself moving to Japan. His gentle but bright presence helped my heart open to the realization I wanted to return. I was welcomed back lovingly and without judgement. What a relief!
Rachel Sierra

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