What I discovered on The Wizard Course is that my success was due to a complete abuse of my power. Yes, I was successful, , but at what cost, and is this the definition of success I want? The answer was no!
I struggled with owning what I had done; this was due to a fear of the consequences and what was going to be left of me if I did.
The key, for me, was realizing that there wasnt much of me now. So much attention was tied up in protecting all my transgressions. I let go and owned my stuff. For a moment the panic hit me, but I was able to recognize that I was already at the bottom. There was only one way to go.
I started to be really honest and compassionate with myself, and a path out emerged. Honesty and compassion have also allowed for some mistakes and time to learn.
I have created a new primary, "I live in integrity." I know that I am willing and able to do this.
Sandra Long- Australia- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1120-successful-at-what-cost-.html
I credit the Avatar and Master Courses for helping me emotionally survive then master a very difficult time in my life. But, The Wizard Course elevated my spirit to such a place of peace and joy. I cant wait to share this perspective with the people in my life. Through my work at Wizards, I have gained an amazing sense of acceptance and compassion for so many things and people I have struggled with all my life.
Thank you for this work. Thank you for your love and support of precious humanity.
Monique Lewis- USA- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1119-cant-wait-to-share-.html
Jeannie Moren- USA- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1118-found-what-i-was-doing-.html
Im busy, busy, busy creating my Wizard Course. It has been hard work (?cuz thats how I like to do it, you know) and there have been many opportunities for discouragement, some of (okay, Ill be honest) LOTS of which Ive bought into.
However, I have to tell you that when I try to imagine what you and Avra must have gone through to get Avatar off the ground, how very hungry you must have gotten, I am inspired. When I imagine your tenacity, your certainty about your path, your doggedness in pursuing it, I am inspired to keep putting one foot in front of the other; to keep putting my attention back on what I want to create.
Thank you, Harry. And please thank Avra for me, too.
D. K.-Texas,USA- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1117-ill-be-honest.html
Regina Schultz- USA- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1116-no-longer-scary.html
Patrick Tan- Singapore- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1115-reconnected-to-my-higher-self.html
I am offering this testimonial to all of you, beautiful people, who teach Avatar and who learn Avatar, in the vision that it may give you some insights on how to assist those of us who have such a hard time to feel!
It was in 1994 that I took my first Avatar Course. In truth, I was just visiting: it took another seven years to really receive my first Avatar Course, when I had become humbled enough to stay in the exercises without lying about having the results. The ahas retrieved in that Christmas course experience were so major for me I made the commitment to show up at the Wizard course that was happening just one month later. Yes, to top it all, I had the Master course under my belt, and had been faking that too! However I followed through with my promise.
For those past seven years, I have not stopped doing integrity work. Not stopped. Period. That clarity alone was worth having journeyed on the whole path of Avatar. Indeed, I had been irremediably changed and powerfully impacted by seeing how crappy my ego mind really was. Indeed, I could only relate to why some of the QMs were so angry with me, as I surrounded myself with the haughty claim of "my" many privileges.
As much as there have been immensely dreadful moments spent in the dark sea of the unconscious, wondering if I would ever get out of the pit where my snake-like agendas and sneaky secrets dwelt, I can also say that the experience of life has gotten progressively lighter and more joyful. "I am happy to be me" came to be matter-of-fact and solidly grounded. And yet... the feeling part was still escaping me!
It is only yesterday that the dedicated assistance of a true master-someone at least as clever as the subtle tricks of my mind and as good and pure as its aspirations-that I shed what I feel was the last skin of my serpentine pride. What I saw was so immensely cunning and insidious that it once again opened domains that were unattainable for me before. My ego-doesnt yours?-loves to make it about me! So much so that my life path took me to surrender making a living through fine arts and become a life coach, just so that I could shut up and listen to someone else but me and my flamboyant story. And even though I could recognize the growing integrity of a heart increasingly devoted to serving community, there were still these places where a narcissistic indulgence would pop up every now and then... These misuses of power were so painful! After the last one (a big and small one), all possibilities of melodramas got busted, simply because I allowed me to feel what it meant to want to be a peacock and to resist to be a peacock.
Well, youre gonna tell me, thats the ABC of the course! And that is just the point, you see... Just like it took me extraordinary amounts of discipline to accept to listen to a client without parading my story all over, I realized last night that my inability to feel was because I didnt want to have a conversation with my pain, to listen to it, to be curious or interested in something else than me, to see how it moved, where it was going, what was its hobby, its passion, what made it tick, what was its dream... I just didnt want to give it my full attention, entirely, unconditionally, 100%.
And that was the last con, you see: as long as I couldnt feel it, my ego could make sure I would remain a spoiled child instead of showing up as an avatar of humanity. However, when the fruit is ripe, it falls from the tree, no matter what. When it does, the fruit (hear the benefit) which was forbidden is digested, and that which was the snake takes on the very face of angelic liberation.
Thank you Harry Palmer for the gift of Avatar and Carole for the gift of your mastery,
In the spirit of humility, gratitude and greatness,
ML- USA- 2009
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-in-life/1114-friends-on-the-path-.html
Harrys talk on the three hearts and the meditation we did afterward allowed me to release much emotion and feel for the first time in months. I cried many tears from my heart, and I felt a great letting go and surrendering throughout my body. I actually shook for a time, and I felt so light.
My realization from the talk was gaining a deeper understanding about creating an EPC and what I need to do to show up. Bring it on.
Roslyn Benson- Australia- 2008
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-wizards-course/1113--tears-from-my-heart.html
I just came off the Masters course in Australia. It was such a beautiful course.
I had the honour of doing the admin on this course and I got to do a round of integrity. Thank you for both these opportunities. All of it was a privilege to me.
On the round of integrity I did a conflict with my father. As soon as I felt the ownership belief, I immediately felt a feeling I have not had before. I felt that I would connect with my father from here forward. It was an interesting feeling as I have had so much on my father. Now in this moment he became a human being and I was going to treat him this way.
Well this feeling was days ago. On Monday I spent a couple of hours with my mum playing cards and dad was resting on the couch. I was a little nervous and kept looking over but he did not say anything. I was not told off or told to keep quiet etc. (Like there has not been a time where I was not told off or told to be quiet even if I am there for 15 minutes.) Hmmmm, I thought "that is right I did integrity and all that stuff cleared". There is still a part of me that wonders - but I reckon I need to handle that doubt. That drama in my life is gone, full stop, I do not need to play it forward.
Anyway as I said goodbye I truly connected with him. This is priceless. These are the priceless moments and lifetimes that the Avatar tools have to offer each and every one of us. So thank you for this opportunity and the opportunity to enrich my life and the lives of others. It is a true treasure.
all my love,
SMJ
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-integrity-course/1112-thank-you-for-this-opportunity.html
Im remiss in not writing sooner. Thank you for the toy manta ray I received as a Master for being on the International Course with you and John the week before last.
I had an exceptional time working with you and John, Audrey, the Masters on the Chicago team, the QMs and the Masters team at large and our students! My last course with Stars Edge was May 07; I was away far too long. During my absence Ive become someone who is excited about creating an EPC instead of being someone who yawns and sits on his hands at its being mentioned, smirking - the way I used to be. My kids are now 22 and 18 and theyre walking into an adult world thats not quite the way I would have chosen if I had given it any thought that I was, in fact, responsible for it. Well, better late......
Ive named my manta, Rachael. Rachel Ray. She lives on my kitchen counter and helps me with meal prep. We get along great, but I dont understand why she keeps saying: "My next guest is a longtime friend..." whenever my doorbell rings.
Please let everyone at Stars Edge know theyre appreciated.
With Love,
Lory Merritt
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-intern-course/1111-my-next-guest-is-a-longtime-friend.html
thank you for helping me to get a place where I felt more connected to this inauguration than I ever could have before even though I was a volunteer and a canvasser and a believer.. In fact doing my part to get Obama elected was the only thing I could manage to do in many months b/c I was in so much grief... but today I was connected to spirit and I was connected with Abraham Lincoln and MLK Jrs spirit on such a profound level I have never experienced before. I listened to both I have a Dream and his last speech..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1L8y-MX3pg
so prophetic. He was assassinated the next day...
In this, is last speech, he said something like.. I may not get there with you but its ok its not about me anymore, because I have been to the mountaintop and I have seen the other side and I know it is there... and here it is we are experiencing it right now what he felt for that moment that made him realize it was ok if he was not there... and then he was shot ( that piece I dont know how to appreciate but it is an amazing thing nonetheless ) I think he knew though in some way. watch it at that link above if you can.
But what I was able to relate with was that feeling he was describing that moment he had b/c I had a moment like that --which I wrote to you about on course, when I trusted and then I saw my dad ( an egret ) fly in and land at that pond...there was no time,no explanations just a knowing...
Oh yeah and the other thing that was so amazing is I have been feeling Abraham Lincoln so much when I watched that pre inaugural concert ( told you about that too on course =-) ) on the steps of the Lincoln memorial... and I am home drinking my favorite iced tea beverage and on the flip side of the lid there are always quotes that are an added bonus and it said... "The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing." Abraham Lincoln. This was literally in the palm of my hand!!!!!
Oh and the last thing is that your talk the 3 steps to enlightenment came to me at just the right moment right after I had decided to go to Wizards and it is the best of all the tools I have gotten so far. You were able to explain how to attain what a buddhist monk attains in clear steps and it works Harry, it works. I am just at the beginning but Kudos to you b/c in a space of a few days an Avatar can achieve enlightenment even if just for a moment... and in the email from stars edge just know of 4 steps to do for a good new year or something. It was # 1. But I had already done it... I was light years ahead!!
Great job too on Wizards Inspiration. I had no idea as I was in that corner suffering and overcoming and trusting and deciding, that I was involved in the first of its kind b/c Wizards is later this year. I did know that I had wished Wizards were in January b/c I had to postpone my trip planned to go to Africa (Rwanda) in order to go to Wizards... but if Wizards were in January, I realized from other perspectives of people who knew more than I, I wouldnt be going b/c I would not have had Wizards inspiration!!!
OK.. I think I can stop blabbing now..
SO Grateful...
Jennifer Sands
Source : http://avatarresults.com/avatar-intern-course/1110-the-shadow-is-what-we-think-of-it-the-tree-is-the-real-thing.html
