Guest post by Lin Walden
As a child, I remember wanting the world to be different. I could feel the misalignment between what was portrayed as the right and ethical way to behave and what I perceived was really going on in the world.
I made much of the injustice of it all and the suffering I knew was going on around me.
I was in reaction to the indoctrination from my parents, school and the church. I had no doubts that the principles they were espousing were valuable. Kindness, care and compassion for others stirred my heart. I felt intuitively aligned with these values.
The problem was that how I was experiencing my life was incongruent with my lists of how things should be.
As time progressed I became more fixed in my 'shoulds', more judgmental and critical; the very opposite of the values I held to be important. I shut myself down from feeling and relied on my intelligence to survive. I further refined this to be controlling in almost every situation.
I became an expert on how others should behave.
The sadness inside continued to grow. I was able to ignore it and get on... most of the time.
As a teacher, I found a way to make a difference in children's lives, through education. The ones who were suffering always found me, even when they weren't in my class. I saw it as a sacred trust to honor and care. You can change the life of a child in a nanosecond, for the better or worse.
My first Principal's job brought me up short. It was a reality check. I was in a new location that operated in a way that was comfortable for the staff, not the children. There was a lot of anger and resentment about workload and there was resistance to change.
Change was uncomfortable for me, as well. In the face of the challenges I became more and more unhappy. I could not see my way forward to creating a better world for these particular students.
The Avatar Course reconnected me to who I really was, to my hopes and dreams... I turned myself around...
At the bottom of my sadness a friend told me about Avatar®.
The Avatar Course reconnected me to who I really was, to my hopes and dreams and gave me the courage to persevere. I turned myself around, the school changed with the community behind it and has gone on to grow and prosper.
Harry Palmer, the author of the Avatar materials, says, "An initial unreality (disorder) occurs when one creates a new reality that violates the limits of the host reality. Persevering through this unreality is essential to expansion and growth."
The tools taught on The Avatar Course are simple to use and profoundly powerful. If you wish to make a change in the world, come and experience it for yourself.
The Avatar Journal would like to thank Lin for sharing her experience.
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